Regression is a theme in our house this week.
1. Dobby has had 3 accidents in 2 days -- after no accidents in 6 months!
2. We are packing again -- does that count? It feels like we are regressing as we go through old already-packed boxes and start packing all over again. (What does NOT feel like regression is the exhilarating feeling of 4 loaded-down-car trips to Goodwill, with more to come)
3. Sadly, I have regressed. This has been a tough, tough week for our family. A few weeks ago, I was in pain again. It came on suddenly and would get better and worse and then just worse. Yesterday we had it confirmed that the cancer is back with several new tumors in the abdomenal area (retriperitoneal (sp) and peritoneal cavities for anyone that gets that). We are looking for a good oncological surgeon who knows what he is doing in this arena and then I want to go back to my oncologist in AZ. We are figuring all of that out for now. The good news in all of this (if there can be any good news) is that none of the tumors are in organs. We are hoping they are all operable, although it will be an extremely invasive and painful surgery. I do not look forward to more of the drugs. I was NOT a good druggie last summer!
I am a fighter; not a quitter. And I know the Lord is ever-mindful of our family. I am so thankful for all the prayers, fasting, support, encouragment, blessings, watching of kids for appointments at the last minute, dinners, etc. We didn't want Rick to get laid off, but I am so grateful that he has been here the last few days. He has been a rock for me. We have cried together and talked about things that he has been scared to talk about before. We have been surrounded by angels on both sides of the veil the last few days.
So... one more way of regression: I guess I am back to posting about more than just normal life and mom-stuff. I hate blogging about cancer! *sigh*
here are some words to a song that has always resonated for me. I only know this song by this musician. It isn't her voice, or just the words, there is just "something" about it:
Des'ree
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
My oh my heh, hey, hey
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
And all I know is that love is saving my days. The love of my extended family, the love of friends, the love of my kids, the love of my husband, and the love of my Savior and Heavenly Father.
14 And I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that I, the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions.
15 And now it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord.
Now, I do know that the Lord is strengthening me and my family, but I need to learn to be more cheerful about it AND more patient! Cheerfulness might save all the make-up I have gone through in the past 2 days. :)
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I am praying for you Aunt Anna...we all are. You are such an inspiration to me. Stay as strong as you are able and the Lord will bring you the rest of the way... Hope the trials subside soon.
We are thinking and praying for youg guys as well. You are one of the strongest women I know...you can do this; of course you can...you're Anna Davies!!
Love, Holly
Anna, I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family will be in our prayers. It sounds like you have a lot to deal with right now, BUT I know that you are a tough lady, that's why I liked you the first day I met you!
You and your family are in our prayers. I don't have any great words of wisdom. I wish I did. Just know that you are so loved by all.
Anna--you are definitely in my thoughts and prayers. I was just reading those verses from the Book of Mormon the other day and thinking about how true they are and I know you will be able to do it (whatever "it" is)!
Love,
Jody
Anna, I can't believe this! You are so amazing to me how you face your challenges! We will be praying for you, too!
Adam and I are actually going to be in Austin next Wed. and Thurs. If there is anything we can do while there, please let us know! I will have the days available while Adam is working. I would love to see you and be able to do something for you - pack, clean, you name it! I really mean it!
You continue to be an example to me with your faith and personal stregnth. Thank you for being you! Please let us know if we can do anything to ease your burdens during your transition back to AZ.
Love,
Sara
Oh Anna, I just wish I could make all the bad things that have happened to your family recently go away. I wish so much that it worked that way! I will miss our little chats in the back of the primary room. I hope that we will get to see each other in Arizona - even though I know that it's not a place that you want to be right now. I love you so much! Thank you for your strength and your testimony. I have learned so much from you about keeping a smile on through adversity. You are an inspiration to so many - including me! We are routing for you and praying for you and your family!
Anna, I am so sorry. I'm crying as I'm reading, and writing. BUT, happy that you'll be in Arizona, and hopeful that you'll get the help you need here. I am determined to brave the heat, and come up and see you :) Let me know when you get "settled" if there is such a thing these days!! I sure love you and pray that peace will come to you and your family. Health trials are "stinky".. can I say that? Hang in there!
Oh Anna, I'm so sorry to hear the news. I so wish that it was different and you could just be done with this stuff. I will be praying for you and your family. You will be sorely missed in Texas and in the Primary.
Anna, it was good to see you although it was a short time. You are an inspiration to all of us and our prayers are with you and your family and your doctors. We love you.
Ally
Oh, Anna! I am so sorry to hear all of this news... especially of the cancer spreading. You are a rock in my life - and I hope you know how much you are loved! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers! Hang in there!
Dear Anna, (yes, you are dear to so many of us), our thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you. May the Lord bless you and your family with the strength to deal with all you have on your plate. We love you. Linda :)
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